Get rid of a demon free oneself from torment

Am I too expensive for what you bargained for?

​There is never a secret way to a woman’s heart, all you have to do is be true to her, straight and never play with her feelings..

When you think you are special to someone until they start acting like a well wisher with everyone else…

The more you pull me closer the further you throw me away , is it a game men play??

I deserve better than being used and dumped,, I feel the pain of a breakup even in my legs,,,, I have been betrayed severally but your betrayal aches a lot

You have said severally that you want me back,,,,i have always returned but you appeared like you just seductively crawled from hell..

Am I too expensive for what you bargained for?? Am begining to think so..

There is and will always be a problem when you buy something you can’t maintain%

                Or maybe your taste and 

                  Preference has changed..

“Hello lover!! Seems you aren’t yourself lately based on how you’ve been pushing me away, all you need to know is that am here for you if you ever change your mind….

If you don’t wanna talk about it then you can watch more movies, smoke yourself to sleep and kiss your pillow like you used to before I walked into your life….

You have reduced me to an arrow in a bow….. Aiming further by pulling me closer only to throw me further every moment

Only a super idiot would want someone who treats them like a door mat,,, I maybe stupid but I love you…** 

I am who I am ,, I spill food, I party , I shout at times, laugh out loud, am weird, I run into things but I am in love, broken and betrayed,

Staying up late waiting for a text reply that costs less than a cent , fantasizing on a beautiful couple we would be and beautiful babies that maybe you cant help sire,,,, 

things that only happen between my ears and never in real life,,

They  say, if you get rid of your demons, you would definitely lose your angels,,, all through have retained you but gained nothing***anyway go angels go if you have to, I can’t keep this demon anymore”’

I need to accept and love myself,, I am tired of crying myself to sleep,, waking up on a make-up kit to look attractive with an ugly torn heart and smiling like all is well.

Happy are those who can and have found their soul mates,, I can’t even find myself… When I was lonely I couldn’t wait to meet you but this ain’t the shit I signed up for..

And being used as a stone in a catapult to kill a bird is not worth my tolerance..

In the end, what are you and what will you be plus what can you be without me!!!  

I am done here dude, I won’t come back no matter what.. I will always walk head high,, for your information sir, if I ever let my head down, it will be just to admire my shoes•••.

But for now imma smoke this blunt,,and wipe these painful tears away and let this be the last time am crying for you…

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In my defense

Even in the arms of a new lover, I will always feel like am cheating on you.

You taught me how to smile in the midst of tears. You saw the beauty in my eyes that no one else could see. You made me believe in what I couldn't see, not because i could touch it, but because i could feel it. 

You remind me of how important my happiness was,,,
You were always there to tell me the stories of the sun and the moon,,

About how the sun always died for the moon every night  and vice versa

How magical you made me feel,sometimes i wondered if breezes could speak too……

whenever you spoke to me you blew my mind away…

Then the day I feared  for came,and you left.

You left me wondering what one does with memories.

I never knew what I thought was my fairy tale,was a witches brew with my heart being it’s last Ingredient 

I know you still blame me for the joke this turned to,but again counting as I moved away proved to be more better ,than sticking around and counting the tear drops of each time I cried, for you,because of you.
‘u r special 

You told me and meant it not until you started sending it to 7 other recipients.

 ‘I never had someone like you’ 

You would type and send it to 3 other girls Simultaneously.

 You had me with your words and lost me with your actions,,,,,

To you I was just the popular girl,the awkward girl, the come back girl.

You forgot i never wanted any other title other than your girl.

We may not talk to each other,but that doesn’t mean I hate you,i still miss you,we just live in two different worlds and I can’t have you.

I feel  so empty,,,,,,,

It might take a while longer to heal the scars you left open,but even in the hands of a new lover 

I will always feel like am cheating on you.

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